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12:13 a.m. - 2003-05-26
the last couple of days have been pretty fun. i hung out with sarah friday night and we talked for a long time. it was nice. i got to see her bridesmaid dress, too. a bright blue color -- light cerulean, if you will. a pretty color, but i think i'll opt for a lavender or some other pastel for my wedding. i'm a pastel freak. i love art pastels, too. you can smudge them as much as you want...it's fabulous. anyway, saturday i worked 12-9 and though it was pitifully slow business-wise, i have to admit that i was entertained the entire time. i work with some cool people. and carrie has an awesome tattoo on the back of her neck: the chinese symbol for "mother," because, like me and mine, she is extremely close to her mom. today was nice, too. i was in a really good mood, it was great. my work habits are always improved when i'm happy.
tomorrow (well, today, i guess...it's past midnight) i'm going to see memere with my mum. we never got a chance before to give her her mother's day present. oops. mom has the day off, since it's memorial day. i'm happy - it means i get to spend all day with her, as opposed to the usual 2 or 3 hours after she gets out of work, during which she is exhausted anyway.
i wish my dad wasn't so suck. like, i wish he would exercise and take care of himself, rather than eating dessert after dessert and practically inviting death over for some ben & jerry's ice cream and a night of channel surfing from the couch. it's going to take a heart attack before he wakes up from this pointless life he's leading. i wouldn't want it to kill him, obviously, but it would need to be serious enough so that after he was somewhat in the clear in the hospital, he would realize that his life is without purpose or joy, and that it just shouldn't be this way.
i want to move out of this house. ben and i have talked a lot about living together and there is potential for this fall, with dugan, but ben's not sure about it because he wants us to be saving money. i do, too, but if i just had a license and a car, i could have two jobs if i wanted to, and save up whatever i wanted. i'm not worried, but i guess he is. he says he needs new gear, which means a lot of money. stuff he needs are usually things that cost at least $300. anyway, i just want to be out of here and try a different lifestyle, you know? like, a living situation that is positive and that encourages personal growth and new experiences. living with my boy (and dugan, for that matter) would do that for me. here's hoping, everybody. cross your fingers for us.
well, it's late, and i need to get up early. byebye.
alliepop