sad.
17:09:25 - 2001-01-19
hi all. *yours truly* is one stupid beyatch because she got home early and had forgotten to bring her key. so she waited outside in the cold for about 2 hours before her mother came home. i'm sure you don't need me to verify that it sucked ass. but i will, anyway. it sucked ass.
a lady from the office came in during the band final. people were playing their ensembles and she didn't wait for them to finish. i thought, wow, how rude of her to just walk in during a performance. then mrs. richardson said she needed to see me...gave me a note that said to call my mother ASAP. so i did, and came to find out that my grandfather had a heart attack early this morning and she didn't know how bad it was. i started crying. i also felt pretty bad about thinking the office lady was rude.
so, pepere is in intensive care right now. the doctors don't know if the problem is a single blocked artery, or multiple. mom left me here so i could warm up and clean the house a little, because the family is going to be coming by later on. memere has no idea what's going on. well, i mean, she knows that pepere had a heart attack, but she has no clue what the doctors are telling her. she just nods.
to think, i was totally looking forward to this weekend.
i realize now, how small a grip we have on the people in our lives. we assume that nothing will happen, that they're fine. really, they could leave us in a split second and we'd have no control over it. that scares the hell out of me. but at the same time, i guess i shouldn't obsess over it because it's rather morbid. no sense in living life in fear, right? right.
i think this weekend would be a marvelous time to eat a truckload of oreos. agree? well, even if you don't, it's goin' down. ha. i should write poetry or something. i will eventually. byebye.