"errrrr! too many '-ages'!!!" -ben
8:48 a.m. - 2003-04-15
i saw a beautiful orange cat in the yard a while ago, and it scurried off around the house when i called it. so i went outside, all over the place, and i couldn't find the little guy. maybe i was hallucinating...you think? it was such a beautiful kitty.
i had a dream last night that there was a spider's nest on the inside of the window next to me. i looked over and there was a giant spider in it. then i did something as i stumbled out of this chair - made a sound or something, and it came after me. man, that was creepy. eww. spiders are the one thing about summer that i really don't look forward to. everything else ROCKS, though!
i went to the mall with mum yesterday and got a surprise for ben (think i'd let it slip in here?? think again, babe, i know you read this! muwhaha) and a pretty necklace to wear with my pink ruffly shirt. yay! i also got a book of driving rules from the bmv, so that's set to go. oh, and i e-mailed mrs. garofalo. i am SO getting crap done, man. got a lot more to do, though.
mum and i went to the grocery store after the mall and karie was there...the one person i totally wasn't prepared to see. she looked at me, i looked at her, and then we both looked away. she looked completely fine with seeing me, and continued talking to who i believe to be her fiance. allison, here, on the other hand, had a panic attack. my skin flushed, i started sweating like mad and then i broke down into tears and had to walk all the way to the other side of the grocery store to get to the bathroom. it was pretty embarassing. i don't think she saw my little episode, but maybe she did. i have been wishing since last night that i had been strong enough to say hi to her and just see how she would react. but it's no use, i completely shut down when the opportunity was there.
i need to get started on my forgiveness project. it's due on the 26th, but i could probably get the whole thing done today if i worked all day on it.
i received spectacular news yesterday...i'm getting $600+ in tax returns. usually it's only $400 or so. and i can't figure out why i have more coming then jason and ben, because they worked more than i did. who knows. but i'm getting a truckload of money, yeehaa! into the smtc fund it shall go! i really think i'll be able to make the first payments on my own (well, with whatever financial aid i get), and man...that is a grand feeling.
i'm off to ben's on easter night! j-rad's gonna give me a ride, since he goes home to berwick every weekend. we'll arrive in bangor around 1am. i think i'll just wear my pjs. six days until i'm with you, handsome!
oh, i forgot to tell of my first day back at oscar's. it was cool. i got to see a yellow lab puppy! he was so chubby and cuuute! oh, and i didn't eat any ice cream at all. i rule. i'm back there friday through sunday. i'm thinking about putting up a sign in the back to see if anyone who lives around my area would be interested in carpooling if i provided gas money. we'll see. i'm not sure about it just yet.
it's been so nice out lately! today it's supposed to be 70 degrees!! this is big news, mainers! scurry to the beach! i hope it stays this nice and spring continues without any snow. i want to be playing outside in a sleeveless top and shorts next week in bangor. ya mon! bring on the warmth!
allieoopa