plea for escape
18:09:13 - 2000-02-10
mom and i went out to the movies today afterschool. she had been wanting to see Eyes of the Beholder, that movie with Ashley Judd, and the paper said today was the last day it'd be playing. so we raced out the door hehe. fun fun fun!!!
(some of) the fun ended in the car though, on the way there. mom wanted to call dad at work and see if he wanted us to bring him home anything for dinner while we were out. he didn't appreciate this gestureof consideration. nope, he yelled at her. barked at her, saying he didn't have any money (mom leaves cash for him every few days for lunches). which meant, she was supposed to be psychic or some shit. he said something about "oh, i'll just starve." i am so tired of him taking her for granted. she's such an amazing person...she deserves better treatment than this. he's not much better to me either. he and i never have conversations anymore. last night i told him i got a 98 on my history test and a 93 on my chemistry test. "good," he said. gee, thanks dad. love those words of encouragement, glad to know you're proud of me...yep. so yeah, he is either reading the paper (and can't be interrupted, oh heavens, no), surfing the web (and we wouldn't want to piss him off while he is looking at cars...), or staring at the tv ("hun, i CAN'T listen to you while i'm watching tv!"). i especially love that last one- how, that night when i was all excited a movie idea megan and i had, and he basically said to shut up because he was too busy keeping up with a movie on tv. well, here we go, i'm crying. god i want to get out of this fucking town.